who is filmcritgoblin?

Hi, I'm Evan. 

In my younger years, I was always a bit of a Peter Parker. 

Smart, nerdy, painfully shy. 

A nice young man, in other words. That was true enough, most of the time. But it was never the full story. Not by half. It was only what I was able to present to the world. 

I wish I could tell you my alter ego was Spider-Man - brave, heroic, self-sacrificing - or even black suit Spider-Man - dark, brooding, vengeful - but neither has been the case. 

Beneath my friendly demeanor, there has always been another side of me. The goblin side of me. Chaotic, cackling, psychotic. More evil and destructive than I'd care to admit. 

COVID was a weird time. I started out living with some of the best friends I have ever had, but by the end of 2021, I was completely alone. I hit a rough patch. I became isolated, agoraphobic, and for a spell, alcoholic. 

During the worst of it, I spent way too much time talking to myself in the mirror. It wasn't good. But it got me in touch with my other side. My goblin side.

With a little help, I pulled myself out of that rut, but truthfully, I have struggled to leave COVID behind. I haven't known what to do. Where to go. Who to be. 

Now, I do. 

I came to California to be creative. To be a writer. But I have always been held back by a fear of failure and an inability to reveal anything about myself. It's hard to be meaningfully creative when you are scared to let anyone in on how you really think. 

By the grace of God, I don't have that fear anymore. 

This website will be home to a number of projects I have been working on over the last year, along with any other short essays and reviews I feel like putting out there. Some will be simple and sincere. Others will be dark and strange.

If you know me at all and if you are interested at all, you can sign up for exclusive access to my writings and hopefully a couple of films I have in the works. I can't promise you that all of them will be good. But I can promise you that all of them will be me. 

And at this point in my life, that's enough. 

So thank you for reading. I hope you will continue to follow along. And if you ever feel like supporting the cause, shoot a few bucks my way. My Venmo is @perdhappily. 

Every little bit will help keep the goblin in me at bay.